Thursday, December 6, 2018

Ask Us Anything


Catherine and I may or may not be planning something


But we need your help! Questions! Send in questions for us to answer. About our friendship, embarrassing stories (mostly my embarrassing stories hehe) anything! (well not really anything, try not to go too personal)

Can't wait to share our surprise!!! 


Friday, November 16, 2018

Left Behind


So remember, I was telling you all about a songwriting contest I was going to enter. Well, I missed the deadline. Which was yesterday.... In my defense on Wednesday, when I was going to send it in, my dad hit a deer and drama ensued and it was crazy. So I forgot. I thought I would share the song I was going to send with you.

Verse 1 

You're gone now
Off on your own path now
Happened so fast
didn't see it comin'
What am I gonna do from here?


What's so wrong with me
that everyone can leave so easily?
I'm not as strong as
everybody thinks I am
This morning I woke up to find
I've been left behind.

Verse 2

People keep telling me
"things will get better tomorrow"
But I've been through 
too many tomorrows and nothing has changed


I want to be happy
but something in me screams
that I don't deserve it...

Hope you like it :)

Monday, November 12, 2018

19 Things I've Learned in 19 Years

Well holy crap guys. I'm 19 now. Last year of being a teenager. Whodathunk??

I thought I would impart on you all some wisdom* I have gathered throughout my long life 

(*wisdom in the sarcastic sense, don't take anything i say in this seriously) 

1. Don't put too much water in the fish tank, or the fish will drown. 

I can hear you all laughing. This advice was given by Catherine to her brothers, but it will stick with me. :) Go here to read the whole story XD 

2. Don't waste 2 years of your life pining after someone who won't give you the time of day. 

I have a problem with getting too attached. Sometimes it will take a few minutes or happen instantly. I got attached to this guy and I let it get out of hand. I still struggle now to put it behind me. 

3. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh til your sides hurt. 

The memories you'll make will last forever :) 

4. Its only awkward if you make it awkward. 

MK has been saying this to me for years.*

(*I still make it awkward tho) 

5.  Its okay to not be okay. 

Sometimes you need to just sit in your room and cry. You'll find you will feel better afterwards. 

6. Your parents are right about everything. 

They'll tell you things and maybe you'll scoff. But later you'll realize everything they were telling you was right.

7. Chocolate is the best.

It fixes everything. Fight me on this.

8. Be kind.

You never know what other people are going through.

9. Be there for your siblings.

Sometimes they drift away and before you can stop it, something bad happens.

10. Always be on your toes.

MK is always waiting to dump water on your head.

11. If you act like you know what you're doing, sooner or later, you'll figure it out.

I've done this so many times, I've lost track.


Trust me, you don't want to know....

13. Depression and anxiety aren't a crime.

Don't treat them as something to be ashamed of.

14. Its okay to ask for help.

Friends are there to help you and support you. Don't be afraid to rely them.

15. Treat yo'self

Within reason, of course. Don't go all crazy with your money.

16. Dance around your room with loud music once in awhile.

It helps. Plus its really fun!

17. If a friend sends you a song, really listen to it.

They're saying what they can't tell you.

18. Live in the moment.

Relish this time. It will be gone before you know it.

19. Follow your heart.

It knows what its doing, even if you don't.

There aren't many songs about 19, I wanted to put some here. Alas, i'll have to rely on an old favorite. :)

Hope you guys enjoy!!


Friday, November 9, 2018

For When You're Feeling Down....

As you all know me by now, I communicate better with music than words. So I have made for you all a mental health playlist. I know that maybe some of these songs may not be in any of your preferred genres, but I encourage you all to listen and hear the lyrics. <3 <3 <3

Hold On--Overstreet

A Reason To Fight--Disturbed

You Will Be Found--Dear Evan Hansen Soundtrack

All The Kings Horses--Karmina

Dear God--Hunter Hayes

Rescue--Hunter Hayes

Invisible--Hunter Hayes

Battle Scars--Paradise Fears

Inner Demons--Julia Brennan

Can You Hold Me--NF, Britt Nicole

You Are Loved--Josh Groban

arms--Christina Perri

Let It All Go--Birdy

Clean--Taylor Swift

God Only Knows---For King And Country

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

From My Mind To Yours

I have depression....

There. I said it. It took me a long time to finally admit to myself that I was depressed. I don't really know exactly what brought it on, I've never been able to figure that out. It took me even longer to tell people that were close to me that I had depression.

My family doesn't even know yet. I haven't had the courage to tell them. I finally broke down to Catherine one night, she has been one of my biggest supporters in this. I told MK shortly afterward too. She continually is always there when I need her.

Depression isn't the easiest thing to deal with, I think anyone with it can relate. There will be a day where you'll be feeling fine, then a black cloud will settle over you and suddenly you can't go on. You become an expert on the fake smile, practicing your "i'm fine" in the mirror. Acting like everything is great, but really you're dying on the inside. Depression is hell, depression isn't a phase, its a disease. Depression is screaming where nobody can hear you. Depression is falling apart without anybody noticing.

I can tell you this, its important to tell someone. I don't know if i'd even be here if I didn't have MK and Catherine to be there for me.

Anxiety has also become a part of my life. I have been medically diagnosed with anxiety. I went to the ER a couple weeks ago with heart palpitations and trouble breathing. Anxiety had taken its toll on my body. I am now on anxiety meds and I am doing ok with it.

Anxiety is staying up all night questioning if anyone actually cares. Anxiety is not feeling good enough. Anxiety is overthinking, asking over and over again if its even worth going on. Anxiety is being overwhelmed and breaking down at the smallest things. Anxiety is being exhausted from trying to be stronger than you actually are.

This is me being honest. I'm in a better mental state than I was a year ago. A year ago, I wouldn't have even dared to even try to write this in a post. I want the world to finally see that mental health needs to become a priority in our society. Too many suffer, too many take their own lives to stop it. This is my call, spread the word. Let the world know, let our voices rise in harmony.

My mental health does not define me.


Thursday, November 1, 2018

From My Mind To Yours Linkup

FAQs What’s it about?

This linkup is to bring awareness about everyday mental health issues and how to care for them. Too often, society has been influenced by the media to make fun of, downplay and desensitize mental health. To bring negative sterotypes to light and debunk them.

How did it come about? I was inspired to start this because i myself deal with depression and anxiety. I wanted to bring mental health issues to light so we can help each other.

What are some suggested topics?

  1. Mental health care - what do you do to de-stress
  2. Debunking negative stereotypes
  3. Advice for good coping mechanisms

How long is it open for? : It is open forever.

Linkup rules:

1. Use image 2. Link your post below in the comments of this post. Thank you all for participating! Lilah

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