Sunday, December 31, 2017

2017 Wrapped

It's that time of year again.

Your inbox is flooded with:

"End of Year!"

"HOW COULD IT BE OVER ALREADY"

"I have no idea what the heck happened this year, but i'm going to try and write about it"


I like to think I'm a mixture of all three. Well, I'm going to try at least





Life 

2017 definitely had it's ups and downs. 

I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned that what you look like does not define you. I learned that it's okay to feel sad for no reason once in a while. 


My relationship with my dad hasn't been the greatest this year. Now that I'm older I understand a lot more and it's weakened our relationship. I don't hate him, but we don't really see eye to eye most of the time. Is it wrong to dislike your own father? Sometimes he will say something that maybe he thinks isn't so bad, but it really shakes my confidence and sticks with me. 

But he's my dad and I do love him. 


My mental health had some ups and downs this year, too. I had some episodes where I just felt depressed and lonely. I listened to sad music and fell into a hole of self-loathing. I've never really been confident with the way I looked. My body type is a little on the heavy side and clothes fit me kinda weird because of that. I would look in the mirror and hate myself. 


But I've accepted the way I look and you are beautiful no matter what you look like. 


I am going to make 2018 a recovery year. A year of discovery and happiness. I want to be able to smile at a mirror and be happy with what I look like. I want my dad and I to have a better relationship. Blogging has really helped me a lot during 2017 and I want 2018 to be even better. 



Blogging


This blog has 12 followers!!! 12!!! Thank you for following me!!!! 


My most popular post is my song, Him *is excited about this*

My songs are actually the most popular posts on this blog. I was so scared to post them on here but now I'm glad I did. Honestly you should have seen me after I posted the first song, I almost gave myself a panic attack. But then I received all the lovely comments from you guys and that really inspired me to keep writing. 





I'm going to comment more on blogs in 2018. I don't do it often and I really should. Most of followers are bloggers too, so if you post something and I don't comment on either the day or the day after you posted it, feel free to come over here and yell at me. Don't hold back, let me have it!!!



Shout-outs

Dear, sweet sister o' mine. You have stuck with me through thick and thin. During my bad moments and during my good ones. Even though you just had to graduate college and leave me You are the best "adopted" sister a girl could ask for!!!


Kat
Bestest friend in the world, your conversations throughout this year have helped me a lot. You've cheered me up, teased me ridiculously about Certain People, and let me hug you, even though you hate hugs. :D :D 


 Other bestest friend in the world, you are awesome!! You give me books that make me cry......but I still love you! Your blog posts always make me laugh! Thanks for letting me read your stories. I can't wait to say that I got to read them before they were published, when you're famous and people trample each other to buy your books. 



               Blog Shout-outs

I love your blog so much and thank you for creating Rebellious Writing. Even though I'm not a member, I still support it!! 

Your comments make my day. Every time I get a notification that you commented, it makes me smile. Thanks for being a good friend :) 

Our names are pretty much alike and I love reading your blog!!! 

Your blog is so aesthetically pleasing to read and your posts are great!








(Because why not!!!!)



Favorite Books and Movies!!!

Books

Heartless
(ouch, still hurts)


Six of Crows/Crooked Kingdom

The Grisha Trilogy 


Whisper to Me 

Damsel Distressed

A Reason to Run

The Ship of the Dead

Open Road Summer



Movies


The Man From U.N.C.L.E. 

Wonder Woman

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2

Big Hero 6




Music 

 

I think Spotify is telling me my favorite artist is Taylor Swift.........


I listened to a lot of new musicals this year! 

Waitress

Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812

Anastasia (!!!!!!!) 

The Greatest Showman (still haven't seen it but listened to the soundtrack) 

The Lightning Thief: The Musical 

They're all great!!! 






Thanks for a great year you guys. Hope 2018 is even better!!!! 


Lilah
 



12 comments:

  1. Awww, you're so sweet1 I love your blog too!!! <3

    I'm so sorry about your dad and your mental health problems, I'll definitely be praying for you.
    You're a great person and I know that God has AMAZING things in store for you. <3

    Happy 2018, I hope your year is wonderful. ^_^

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    1. Oh, and you read Whisper to Me and Damsel Distressed too?! Cool! I liked those two books a lot. :D

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    2. Thank you Gray!!! I really liked them too! I'm hoping to get a review up soon. :D

      Lilah

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  2. I'm sorry things have been tough, Lilah. Know that I will be praying for you. <3 You are a beautiful soul who is so kind, I know things will get better. <3

    Thank you so much for the shout out! I love your comments, too. :)

    Heartless till hurts me, too. XD
    Big Hero 6 is the best! (After HTTYD, of course. XD)

    Happy New Year.

    ~Ivie
    iviewrites.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Ivie. You don't know how much that means to me :)

      HTTYD is always the best :D :D :D

      Lilah

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  3. MY LIL SIS!!!! *Hugs*

    You're not alone - my relationship with my dad wasn't the greatest at your age, and we still have our bad days occasionally. I don't think dads quite realize that they have such a pivotal role in their daughters emotional development.

    I'm SO GLAD to be there for you!! AND I WILL BE BACK!!!!

    Catherine

    (Ummm...we have to add those movies to the list....)

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    1. *hugs back*

      Thanks big sis! (and yes we do :D)

      Lilah

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  4. Happy 2018, Lilah!!!!

    It has been so great to get to know you!! I am sorry that you had some problems in 2017, but 2018 will be the best!!!

    You are absolutely awesome. Happy 2018!!!!!!!

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    1. Thanks MovieCritic! You're awesome too :D :D

      Lilah

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  5. AAAAAAWWWWW!!! You mentioned me!! Thank you so much!! :D :D <333333 I really appreciate it. :)

    I'm sorry about the more difficult parts of your year. I hope your relationship with your dad improves. I also struggle with self-image, but I'm also trying to be more proactive about liking the way I look as I am. I love what you said about making 2018 a recovery year. AMEN, GIRL!!! You've got this. God's right by you, always. <3

    Ahh, I want to read Heartless! And aaaaahhh, all the new musicals!! Anastasiaaaaaaa <333

    Great post! I hope 2018 has been good to you so far! <3

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    1. Oh my gosh Oliva thank you!!! 2018 is going to the year of recovery, it has to be :) Thanks, it has!

      Lilah

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