i truly didn't mean to go away. i ran out of time to do the things i love and i just had to put my head down and focus on work. So here i am four months later returning to you a changed person. 

ive been trying to find myself. its not going as well as i would like it to but i'd say i'm getting better. i often leave my house and go to the local park and just sit. And be. sometimes it works and i go home refreshed and ready to take on the next day. Other times i cry and beg for a sign that i'm where i'm meant to be and not just wasting my life away. 

but yes, i am back here and i hope to stay for a while. that is all for now and i will see you all next week. 

Lia<3

General Kenobi  :D :D 

Life is weird.


Life is also very wonderful and sad and awful but its what we've got so we'll get through it. Life has kinda also been kicking me in the pants lately. And simultaneously opening up some doors for me that  i thought would never open..

Like i said, life is weird.

i go to school now. Coming from someone who was literally counting the days when i would be finished with school is really something. It wasn't really until a couple months ago when i realized that i missed it. i was very shook. And then when this music program offered me a spot, i had to take it! I am very happy to be doing homework again, you have no idea. :D



Things no one tells you about being an adult:

You have to schedule your own doctor appointments no matter how much you beg your mom to do it.... And that's why i still haven't gone to the chiropractor......

Bills...

When you get up at 5am almost every day for work, your body does it naturally on your day off. Why body??

Its really hard to schedule hangouts with your friends, cause either you're working or they are. So you just text each other "we should hang out!" until you die i guess.

You have to pay taxes now. Taxes are such adulty things *shudders*

Apparently as a kid i thought adults had all the answers. Now i'm just like haha no. We don't know what we're doing, we're winging it!



I have to be responsible now. This happened the other day at my church. One of the moms was looking for someone to look after a group of kids for our All Saints Day party. And i was looking around for some adult responsibility. Then one of the moms was like, "you can do it, you're an adult now" And then i sat in the corner and had an existential crisis...



i'm legally old enough to get married. Like what?


ok writing this is making me have an existential crisis..

I'm doing NaNo this month!! It was very unplanned because i was originally not going to. But then a secret project revealed itself. So i am very excited to reveal it at the end of the month!!



You may all be wondering. "Lia didn't you kinda do a post like this a couple weeks ago?" i did. But i had more thoughts that needed added. Also i'm kinda turning 20 tomorrow so i had to freak out about it.


Anyway, tell me what's up with you!
Lia <3