i don't love myself.
I didn't used to hate myself. But there was this boy and he changed me. Made me see maybe i wasn't worth anyone's time, certainly not his. He did a lot of things to me, most of which i am still trying to get over.
He broke me in all the ways it matters most, but i am thankful to him, for if he had not broken me, i would not be as strong as i am today.
Self love is important though. For if you don't love yourself, you cannot open yourself to love other people. When you learn to love yourself, you'll learn to love the world and the people in it. Life becomes beautiful again.
You have to choose yourself, even when others refuse to. It's okay to take a break, a moment for yourself. it's okay to be selfish if it means rediscovering your happiness. You can't find your worth in someone else or by proving it. Your value is found when you become aware of how worthy you are and what's really worth your energy.
Love yourself but take it slow. For love to grow properly, you cannot rush it and expect to immediately love yourself that instant. Love is requires patience and vulnerability.

You'll go through days where you think you have everything under control and you'll think its all okay now. And you'll have days where everything goes wrong and you'll wonder what's the point if this is happening? i promise you, it will be okay. Self doubt is toxic and won't get you anywhere. Every experience, both good and bad, will eventually get you where you need to be.
So love yourself, and live proudly and fiercely.
Live.
Just live.
Lia